People don’t understand, Sometimes you just need a day away from friends, from the hustle and bustle of everyone and everything and take a breather. It’s always nice to treat yourself and spend time with yourself at your home. When people intrude on that and make you feel guilty over not spending time with them, it really fucking sucks. It really sucks especially when you aren’t expecting yourself to end up feeling like that. I am perfectly content laying on my bed with soft lighting,and a movie to watch, alone. People seem to take that the wrong way like you are being a homebody or sad. I’m not sad. I’m sad because no one can quite grasp that spending time with yourself is a positive and healthy thing. Be with yourself sometimes. Take a long bubble bath and relax. Draw something and hang it on a wall. Watch your favorite movies and cuddle up with blankets. Paint your nails. Bake something warm n sweet. Read a good book and get lost in it. I needed a night for myself where i didn’t have the arise of friends being my burden. I just needed to refresh, and that is not a bad thing.
we can be friends and be cute n sleepy together ok
I suffer from life and from other people. I can’t look at reality face to face. Even the sun discourages and depresses me. Only at night and all alone, withdrawn, forgotten and lost, with no connection to anything real or useful — only then do I find myself and feel comforted.
I’ll always remember you as the girl in the white dress, who walked into my bar.